...and it begins!!

It all started with the strangest thought: i wonder if i could breastfeed our second baby..  We were in the beginning of our adoption process, and i thought it was the freakiest thing ever thought of.  Who breastfeeds a stranger's baby?!  Everyone will think i'm a freak, that i'm 'forcing' bonding.  What would it look like, a white woman breastfeeding a black/hispanic/asian/Native American baby..?!  But then i thought, quite fiercely: Why Not?!  


We had our daughter in September of '09, and she was an in-vitro baby.  I successfully BF her for 10 months, when she started walking and wanted my breasts to be mobile as well!  I thought, well, if i fed H for that long, why can't i feed another..?  It would be MY baby, after all, and i know BF is best.  I didn't want to bother with formula, and i knew that bonding would be so much more instinctive and natural if i BF.  And so i did as any other young mother does these days, i searched the Internet for more info!  I didn't find much..  People said it was possible, but i only found ONE firsthand source.


My best girlfriends have been so supportive and encouraging, so i finally admitted to myself it wasn't a selfish and freakish desire after all, that it would really be best for me and my new baby!  So, i started reaching out..  I found an Etsy vendor that put together some herbal lactation pills for me to help start my milk supply to build.  I read any and all articles that i could find.  And i waited.  I waited for our Home Study to be complete, and until we got the green light to be able to adopt.  That happened yesterday.  YAY!!!


My best girlfriend, Tammy, coincidentally called me this morning and offered me her hand pump, that was all decked out with new parts and ready to go.  And so, i thought, no time like the present!  Might be a year, might be a week, you never know with adoptions.  And so, at 2:00 MST today, i began to pump.  I didn't expect anything, but i made it a personal goal to pump for 15 minutes.  And, lo and behold..


Colostrum!!  At least, i think it is..!!  Thick, nasty-tasting (yes, i licked it), creamy colored.  Not a lot, didn't even drip into the little bottle attachment, but it was there!  I texted Tammy and told her what had happened, and she suggested this.  A blog.  For other mums out there that might have had the same crazy, freakish thought i had had a few months ago.  This is my own little 'Operation'.